Old Times...

To start off, I think blogging aint that popular nowadays yea? It seems like people hardly blog now.. A lots had happened, going on and going to happen.

Brilliant Legacy

爱。。。

你就在我面前，但都不知我爱你。
现在我才发觉，我最讨厌的是，你说我是你最好的朋友。
我最伤心的是，当你说，你觉得我很烦。
摸着自己胸口，感觉心里一阵阵的刺痛，眼泪不仅流了下来。
但是，每当想起你的笑容，我也会不知不觉的傻笑起来。
我怎么到现在都还爱着你？

I miss you..

One moment you are here, and with just a turn, you are gone. Next, I only saw your backview and it's the only thing I saw.
I miss talking to you, texting you, most importantly, YOU.

Moving on? Or preserve on?

Well, i guess third's the charm doesn't apply to me. But I think I am the one who is thinking too much and hope for a better outcome. I still don't know you well enough, thus, like you say not 'that close' to you. Everything I did and words I say, doesn't it makes you feel something? Guess, I am making it all in my mind. What should I do when I meet you? What happen if you just turn away or roll your eyes at me? It will really break my heart if you do that. But first thing first, will I have to courage to face you? I don't know, I really don't..

" Guess I rather hurt then feel nothing at all. "

Tako~

Breakthrough

Its almost the end of another year, 365 1/4 days pass like a blink. This year passes by exemptionally fast, well actually its all the same, on psychological view, maybe I wanted it to be slow but it will never be. Perhaps, running is what I can do.
Music, it became an important part of my life, maybe I can't even survive without it. I think it is the best way I can express and relate myself to.
New Year? It will never be the same, it will never be for anything, even for a second.
Any Resolution? Nothing really.. If there is one, I think it might be : "Trust your heart truly, follow what your heart say. However, your brain must be at work too. Only relaying on your feeling is define as guts, by using both heart and brain is to convey sincere thinking."

Life is just like the keys on the piano, living in the world of black and white. It's the melody produced that add the colours and link the hearts together.

Knowing

Its time to aim and create a new beginning.

I like it when it rains, you don't always get to get yourself drench. The very first raindrop that drop from the sky and touches your skin always awakes something new. It sets you thinking of all you've did and reflect with every subsequent raindrops felt.

"You don't get to change the past, nor will you be able to fully control your future. What matters most is to take the first step in the present."

紫里彩虹，愉快人生

我想通了。

我们只是从小一起长大，

所以喜欢她，只是一种习惯。

热积月累，我就变得很执著。

经过几次的尝试，我始终还是失败。

我很难过，毕竟这就是期待落空。

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但我毕竟坚持了这么久，

该是放手的时候。

虽然一开始我就是一相情愿，

但我并不后悔，

因为你是值得我去爱的人。

谢谢你以前给我的美好回忆，

虽然模糊，

但非常愉快。

希望你不会再遇见像我一样这么烦的人。

祝你永远幸福快乐。

谢谢你，对不起。

‘ The hardest thing in life, is to be yourself, and face the truth. '

Finding the lost feeling

Staying up late tonight again.
A sudden thought occurred to me, what is studies? Why are we studying? I remembered how it was like studying in primary school. During that time, I enjoyed studying, everyday I would get up feeling all excited for school. It was like studying is not a chore, but a process to learn, marks wasn't as important as it was now, but the feeling of getting the top few really felt great.

' Certificates only proves that you got the assurance of the world, but it doesn't assure that you will be happy, studying blindly. '

However, that feeling had disappeared now. I studied because I want that diploma, I want to get GPA of 4 and I want to get my picture up that scholar board! I need to get back that feeling, realising what is the real purpose of studying again, and I know I will be able to do it!

' No brains or brawls will be able to compare to a heart of gold. '

The Truth

Staying up late every now and then, seeing you online, saw you awake. I know I shouldn't, but I just kept on remembering, those heart pumping moments that will never be forgotten.

' Everthing I said, the words, the sentences, the paragraphs, even the punctuation, all comes from the bottom of my heart.'

' I would rather say the truth to make you realise and choose your own path, then lying to you as I would also be lying to myself.'

Courage

After 1 week plus, the mid-semester test will begin, no doubt it is stressful but I will have to do my very best. Can't let myself and the ones beside me down.
How I wish my life was like a script, then I will be able to change the plot in whatever way i like, continue to live in that fantasy of mine, dreaming away. Well, maybe I've watched too much drama. It will never happen, I will not be able to make changes to the things around me, but I will still be able to hold my own destiny. Does miracles really happen?
We need to look good to give others a good impression of ourselves, yes I agree. But packaging oneself up into someone that is not us, I really dislike that idea. Can't we just live within our means? But it is worth it as long as you are happy.

'Humans are not born with Courage, it is the accumulation of bits and bits of different experience'

23/5/2010 : 6.05PM

5 weeks of poly life had passed. Its been really fast, as in life passes by really quick. However, do I enjoy my life? Has it been a pleasant journey? Well, I have no clue.
I have stuck in this chapter of my life for quite sometime, but I think I already drawn a fullstop on it. Should I start a new chapter? Sometimes, looking at those torn and dull pages, made me realised the lessons i have learnt from, however, I don't think I have walked out of those pages. Although, there are other golden pages, the whole book is practically still empty...

"Light is what give this world Life, and HOPE never loses its Light even when engulfed in Darkness."

New Day, New Beginning, Same Spirit and Unforgettable Memories

I know I write-in irregularly. Its because I don't have the......gan jue!
Firstly, was feeling really bad that i did not turn-up for the 'Family last dinner', really wasn't sure when will be the next.
In a few more hours, it's going to be the beginning of a new day, new journey. However, my feelings are clashing together, one side having the anxiety of going to the new school, another still holding on to the past.
Shouldn't I be feeling all pump-up and excited to enter the new environment? Seriously, I don't know what to think of now.
Another reason for me feeling this ways was what some other people said to me, about my life. Its seems that I may have to get a different approach to the things i do now, I also have not much of a clue what they say or what i am saying. Funny right?
People change, yes they change everyday, but they seems to evolve into another person. I don't really know anymore, its all not the same, not the same feeling. Maybe it's just me, refusing to move even an inch, or just having a slow processor.
Now, I just have to think of the 5 Brothers and 1 Sister as my pillars of support, my only strenght to keep on moving. To keep the spirit on, just like when we are together, overcoming any obstacles. The laughters, the sorrows, the unique bond and the unforgettable memories buried deep in my heart, like the heart of a scorching fire. However, will we last? Will I be able to think of you guys and talk when there is a problem like we did last time? Its not that I am doubting this family, but I am just unsure of myself, whether I am up for this challenge? Or would it be like the last dinner? But I believe, I believe that the bond will last, last till the very end, to the very end of the world, to the very end of my life. It will never be forgotten. The people, the feelings, the thin and thick we went through will always be in me.

B, X, A, S, J. Will always be in my heart.

Not as one individual, but as one strong and irreplaceable family.

Moving on

Its going to be the beginning of another part of my life. New people i would meet, new environment to adapt to and brand new sets of knowledge waiting for me to obtain. However, there is still some part of me that is unwilling to move on and wish they could cling on to the present. Well, there is just so little time.

- No matter where we are, our hearts will still beat as one, our bond strong and unbreakable.