Enchanted...

We talked again, but this time round, as friends, friends that promises to stand by eachother. All along, I guess that I was just fooling myself around, just wishing upon a miracle.
I have to admit, I didn't have the guts to really chase after you, I just wasn't sure about it, mostly about myself. Well, look at me, which part of me will attract you? Can't think of any.
I really like the feeling that you are gving me, the sudden skip of heartbeat everytime I saw you, the breathless moment and the focuses on you that ignore everyone around. I was enchanted by you.
It would be three years since I known you, with the gaps of silence in the middle, its just not the same anymore. But through all these I learnt something, "No one will wait forever, you need to let them know, it won't just happen."
I need to let me go, put us down. I have a more important focus now, am very glad to have met you. ( I still smile on the chats we have last time, its been all really nice. Thanks.)

*Just typing out, just ensuring myself......

Confuse...

The gift of friends...

Tako:

Till now, I still have no idea why she send me the message. Am I a candle in her darkness, or just a doll left up the shelf where she takes it out when she's bored. Its the second time I confessed to her, with much 'anticipation' this time though. Hope she find someone she really like this time, wish her luck.

Bros and Sis

Its been almost 5 years since we known each other, really glad to have you all by my side. Was really sad after watching Running Man where Joongki and Gwangsoo cried. Through all these years we been through a lot together, lets walk through the memories lane...

Listen to: The gift of a friend, Demi Lovato..

SERIOUS mode！

我看是该时候我开始认真了！希望在三年后我们都会很杰出，让彼此感到荣幸。

“我不知道，为什么我还抱着那一丁点的希望。原本已经想放弃你了，但万万没想到会收到你那令人心跳万分的信，让我那沉睡的心又从新被点燃了希望。不知你到底在想什么，说的真的切切属实，这令我感到非常纳闷。经过多少失眠的夜晚，反反复复的询问自己的心，我再次勇敢的踏出那一步。可是，我真的不喜欢在网络上向你告白，只因你都不肯给我那当面的机会。但，都过了几天，我还没有收到你的回信，我开始慢慢失去信心。（Was resting awhile from typing, where the first english word I saw : MIRACLE, is this a sign? My hope pinning up high.) 我不知道你多久才会回复，但我也该认真了，把学业读好是我第一个目标。”

Tako......

心

看了，《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》，我想了很多。想起一些我做的事，我没做的事，有的可爱，有的愚蠢，但我一点也不后悔我所做的每一件事。虽然我没谈过恋爱，也没邀请女生单独的出去过，我相信我很快就会遇见你。

Every stories have different endings, some we like, some we might not like. Just know that you and I have been through it and we make the best out of it.

Old Times...

To start off, I think blogging aint that popular nowadays yea? It seems like people hardly blog now.. A lots had happened, going on and going to happen.

Brilliant Legacy

爱。。。

你就在我面前，但都不知我爱你。
现在我才发觉，我最讨厌的是，你说我是你最好的朋友。
我最伤心的是，当你说，你觉得我很烦。
摸着自己胸口，感觉心里一阵阵的刺痛，眼泪不仅流了下来。
但是，每当想起你的笑容，我也会不知不觉的傻笑起来。
我怎么到现在都还爱着你？

I miss you..

One moment you are here, and with just a turn, you are gone. Next, I only saw your backview and it's the only thing I saw.
I miss talking to you, texting you, most importantly, YOU.

Moving on? Or preserve on?

Well, i guess third's the charm doesn't apply to me. But I think I am the one who is thinking too much and hope for a better outcome. I still don't know you well enough, thus, like you say not 'that close' to you. Everything I did and words I say, doesn't it makes you feel something? Guess, I am making it all in my mind. What should I do when I meet you? What happen if you just turn away or roll your eyes at me? It will really break my heart if you do that. But first thing first, will I have to courage to face you? I don't know, I really don't..

" Guess I rather hurt then feel nothing at all. "

Tako~

Breakthrough

Its almost the end of another year, 365 1/4 days pass like a blink. This year passes by exemptionally fast, well actually its all the same, on psychological view, maybe I wanted it to be slow but it will never be. Perhaps, running is what I can do.
Music, it became an important part of my life, maybe I can't even survive without it. I think it is the best way I can express and relate myself to.
New Year? It will never be the same, it will never be for anything, even for a second.
Any Resolution? Nothing really.. If there is one, I think it might be : "Trust your heart truly, follow what your heart say. However, your brain must be at work too. Only relaying on your feeling is define as guts, by using both heart and brain is to convey sincere thinking."

Life is just like the keys on the piano, living in the world of black and white. It's the melody produced that add the colours and link the hearts together.

Knowing

Its time to aim and create a new beginning.

I like it when it rains, you don't always get to get yourself drench. The very first raindrop that drop from the sky and touches your skin always awakes something new. It sets you thinking of all you've did and reflect with every subsequent raindrops felt.

"You don't get to change the past, nor will you be able to fully control your future. What matters most is to take the first step in the present."

紫里彩虹，愉快人生

我想通了。

我们只是从小一起长大，

所以喜欢她，只是一种习惯。

热积月累，我就变得很执著。

经过几次的尝试，我始终还是失败。

我很难过，毕竟这就是期待落空。

******

但我毕竟坚持了这么久，

该是放手的时候。

虽然一开始我就是一相情愿，

但我并不后悔，

因为你是值得我去爱的人。

谢谢你以前给我的美好回忆，

虽然模糊，

但非常愉快。

希望你不会再遇见像我一样这么烦的人。

祝你永远幸福快乐。

谢谢你，对不起。

‘ The hardest thing in life, is to be yourself, and face the truth. '

Finding the lost feeling

Staying up late tonight again.
A sudden thought occurred to me, what is studies? Why are we studying? I remembered how it was like studying in primary school. During that time, I enjoyed studying, everyday I would get up feeling all excited for school. It was like studying is not a chore, but a process to learn, marks wasn't as important as it was now, but the feeling of getting the top few really felt great.

' Certificates only proves that you got the assurance of the world, but it doesn't assure that you will be happy, studying blindly. '

However, that feeling had disappeared now. I studied because I want that diploma, I want to get GPA of 4 and I want to get my picture up that scholar board! I need to get back that feeling, realising what is the real purpose of studying again, and I know I will be able to do it!

' No brains or brawls will be able to compare to a heart of gold. '