Firstly, was feeling really bad that i did not turn-up for the 'Family last dinner', really wasn't sure when will be the next.
In a few more hours, it's going to be the beginning of a new day, new journey. However, my feelings are clashing together, one side having the anxiety of going to the new school, another still holding on to the past.
Shouldn't I be feeling all pump-up and excited to enter the new environment? Seriously, I don't know what to think of now.
Another reason for me feeling this ways was what some other people said to me, about my life. Its seems that I may have to get a different approach to the things i do now, I also have not much of a clue what they say or what i am saying. Funny right?
People change, yes they change everyday, but they seems to evolve into another person. I don't really know anymore, its all not the same, not the same feeling. Maybe it's just me, refusing to move even an inch, or just having a slow processor.
Now, I just have to think of the 5 Brothers and 1 Sister as my pillars of support, my only strenght to keep on moving. To keep the spirit on, just like when we are together, overcoming any obstacles. The laughters, the sorrows, the unique bond and the unforgettable memories buried deep in my heart, like the heart of a scorching fire. However, will we last? Will I be able to think of you guys and talk when there is a problem like we did last time? Its not that I am doubting this family, but I am just unsure of myself, whether I am up for this challenge? Or would it be like the last dinner? But I believe, I believe that the bond will last, last till the very end, to the very end of the world, to the very end of my life. It will never be forgotten. The people, the feelings, the thin and thick we went through will always be in me.
B, X, A, S, J. Will always be in my heart.
Not as one individual, but as one strong and irreplaceable family.
