Recalling; Still having doubts to turn infront..

So, its better to look back or just continue walking infront?
It just aint the same.. hmm.. not the things you think but just that the normal feel isnt there anymore..
At the time when it alone.. i think and kept thinking.. both things.. looking at how things go its memories, memories of happy and sad times.. either by photo, pictures, the sky, the songs or even a little ant would make me recall..
Time. Its just way too fast.. its so fast until people wouldnt have the time to slow down and think.. every drama nowadays seems to be proceeding to the final episode..

Growing up. like whats it says, will it be the greatest time in life? The most memories, time and effort that we put in...At the blink of eye, it would be my O' and with another blink...

My brothers and sister, my time, my energy.. part of my life..Precious photo, Precious memories...


我想跨出第一步，但没那勇气，因为只有千万分之一的抱握，能得到你的心。。
每当看见你，或想起你，都不知如何所错。

Back at last...

I am back at last! Finally, can post after a few months...
although, webs are building around, i'll try my best to post as long as i have time to..
'Quite busy' with things either in school or home but through all this really learn alot..
China people come on Monday but they are leaving tomorrow, thats life! you come and go, whether you like it or not..

Our dear 6 batch Excos step down today.. have real lots of great memories with them.. sang farewell song for them.. Hope they make others and their life even better after O'.

Change the song.. enjoy..

Lots of events...

Hi to all, long time didn't post.. haha wouldn't post that often these days...
As events are popping out and Mid-Year Exam is coming..
Heard this song today and felt that its nice..
Sit back and enjoy!

Click Five - Kidnap My Heart

Hey girl, whats your name i think I caught you looking my way
Do you wanna know how to get me of to your own
Weekends work the best i pick the place you do the rest
Hey now don't be shy but you got to keep me in line
Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me
but you made me believe

Kidnap my heart
take me with you
Kidnap my heart
make my dreams come true
Take me away cause falling in love
Is very far, not far from the start
Kidnap my heart.

Can you get me up more
Fun that i can ever dream of
Could you tie me down
Can you keep me hanging around
I don't wanna be into keep you company
Put your hand in mine got to hold on top of the ride
Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me
but you made me believe

Kidnap my heart
take me with you
Kidnap my heart
make my dreams come true
Take me away cause falling in love
Is very far, not far from the start
Kidnap my heart.

You've got to hold me tighter
Cause I'm a real fighter
Don't tear us apart
Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me
but you made me believe

Kidnap my heart
take me with you
Kidnap my heart
make my dreams come true
Take me away cause falling in love
Is very far, not far from the start
Kidnap my heart.

Kidnap my heart
Kidnap my heart....

Reflecting &Thinking

Today, I've got quite a number of compliments and 'lectures'. Truefully, i gave some serious thought on all of it, whether good or bad... haha... Now then know that got people got high expectation on me, but i didnt live up to the standard..haiz.. But overall quite happy today haha...
Uploaded new song.. one of my favourite: Japanese lyrics with English translation...

Yuuhi no Yakusoku by Makino Ruki

Zutto zutto issho ni iru to Ano yuuhi ni yakusoku shita kara
Ima sugu aitai Sono kimochi o Onegai tsutaete ne

Hitoribotchi no kokoro ni Totsuzen tobikonde kita
Sukoshi itakatta koto Yasashiku tsutsunde kureta
Konna ni hotto suru koto wa hajimete dakara
Sono nukumori o sotto Poketto ni tsume konde Aruite ikitai?

Zutto zutto issho ni iru to Ano yuuhi ni yakusoku shita kara
Sabishii toki mo Hirogaru orenji o nagamete
"Kitto kitto daijoubu da yo" ano yuuhi ga sasayaite kureru
Ima sugu aitai Sono kimochi o Onegai tsutaete ne

Anata ga ichiban suki na Saikou no egao de
Mukaerareru you ni Watashi mo mainichi ganbatte ikitai?

Zutto zutoo issho ni iru to Ano yuuhi ni yakusoku shita kara
Kujikesou demo Kirei na orenji o dakishime
"Kitto kitto daijoubu da yo" Ano yuuhi ga oshiete kureta no
Shinjite ireba Sono kimochi wa Kanarazu todokutte

Zutto zutto issho ni iru to Ano yuuhi ni yakusoku shita kara
Tooku ni itemo Onaji orenji o kanjite
"Kitto kitto daijoubu da yo" Ano yuuhi wa tsunagatteru kara
Mou nakanai yo Futari no ai Kokoro o terashiteru
Futari no ai Kokoro o terashiteru?

English translation

We'll be together forever, forever,Because we promised that setting sun
I want to see you soon, Please convey that feeling

You unexpectedly dove into my lonely heart
You kindly wrapped up the things that hurt a little
It was the first time I felt so relieved so
I squeezed that warmth into my outside pocket,Do you want to go walking?

We'll be together forever, forever, Because we promised that setting sun
In lonely times, we can look at that lengthening orange
That setting sun will whisper, "It will be okay"
I want to see you soon, Please convey that feeling

So that I can meet you with your very favorite
My best smile, I'll hang in through every day

We'll be together forever, forever, Because we promised that setting sun
It might seem discouraging but we'll embrace the beautiful orange
"It will be okay" is what that setting sun taught us
If I really believe, that feeling will definitely reach you

We'll be together forever, forever, Because we promised that setting sun
Even if we are far away, We'll still feel that same orange
"It will be okay" Because that setting sun connects us
Don't cry anymore, In the light of the love in our hearts
In the light of the love in our hearts.

Just feel like blogging...

Hi all, feel like blogging, haha...
Alright an important news to say, i would like you all to look to the left of your screen.. see a tagboard? There's one there right? i want you all to do something.. PLZ tag... haha.. cause there's only a single soul tagging...
Thanks...

Alright, nothing much to write... so will be going off early..bye...

The time is always right to do right
- Martin Luther king

Today. Another ordinary day...

Today, it just seems another ordinary day to me... this special day have became ordinary year by year... it just dont feel like the same any more... maybe i am just thinking too much... haha... life? who knows? haha..
Did get wishes from brothers and friends... haha... didnt get from **** and never recieve anything from **** also..haha... lol... i am complaining liao...lol...
Didnt feel that well to post...
Change my song and this is the lyrics:

Yea, Whats going on, 2006 Mario and Nesty
brand new classic
ride with us its about two guys and hot girls
yo keep it up keep it up
two step with me come on
lets do it do it do it like this

1,2 baby clap ur hands
Everybody lets go ha ha ha
I want yall ledies clap again
Let me hear u say wut wut

Uri Danduli its my story
Ddo Neoeui Mami Heumi Nae Nungaeui Nunmuli
Neowaeui Siganeun Neomunado Gileo Neomu Gileo
Ddaddeithan Naeui Mameuro Dolaogil Bileo
the ghetto Neoeui Mami Kkeullineun Daero Neon
Geudaero
Never say goodbye so get up

* If you go away
You will see me cry
Don't you let me go
baby, don't you let me down
Neul Hamgge Isseodo Deo Gaggapji Anheun
Eoddeon Euimido Eopsneun Jinbuhan Sarang
Don't you let me go
baby, don't you let me down

** You never say goodbye
Handongan Meonghani Udukeoni Anja
Dasi Saenggakhaessjiman
Meomchulsun Eopsgesseo
Ontong Geudae Saenggak
Halsu Bakke Eopsneun Nae Jasini Miuo
Don't you let me go
baby don't you let me down

And we the best ain't no need to stress
Mario and nasty ain't on need to impress
Yo! Neoeui Mamuel Bada Naeui Mameun
Byeonchianha
Heona Mam Teong Binchaero Biuodujin Anha
Call it a fling or a love thing
I don't care I can handle any drama that you bring
Bam Kkok Seuo Mam Kkok Sarangeuro Chaeuo
with out u im etter no one could do it better
Mario right tight errnight that's right

I am still in love with you hey
Nae Mameul Jeoldae Ihae Mothandago
I am still in love with you hey
Let me hear you say hey hey hey

Yo check it Niga Nareul Ddeonandago
Ojik Isesange Neoran Yeoja Hanarago
Kkotkkoti Namjadapge Pogihajin Anha
only u Ojikhana only u Ijjinanha
baby 1,2,3,4 I got the mic check

[Repeat * , **]

1,2 baby clap ur hands
Everybody lets go ha ha ha
I want yall ladies clap again
Let me hear u say hey hey hey

Sarangdo Byeonchianha Naeui Meomdo
Byeonchianha
Naeui Kkumeul Irhjin Anha Jeoldae Pogin Eopsda
Ill logic real toxic switch quicker than tiptonic
hetero sexual the kids flow is incredible
Sarangdo Byeonchianha Naeui Meomdo
Byeonchianha
Naeui Kkumeul Irhjin Anha Jeoldae Pogin Eopsda
Yea-

Life... Unfair? There's good and bad...

Whats life? How do you know if its a meaningful life?
Its crap, all crap... believe it or not... humans are just real a pain in the a**, there's a Chinese idioms that is：好事不出门，坏事传千里, it meant, all the good thing you have done no one really care about it, but once you did something wrong it seems like you became a sinner all will start to know about it...
However, 人非圣贤， 孰能无过, it means humans aint saints or sages, so there will always be mistakes...
Today, quite fun.. in school i was super hypo... lol... then after that went to ICA accompany Bran to make his IC... then after that went Safrai play pool and bowling...
After that..admit i did something that was really stupid... but come on... you aint that good either...lol... 'threaten' by someone... lol... he wasnt at wrong la, but come on la..nvm...
Haha.. nth much to say now... long time never update blog... too downcast to be posting all this...
But lastly, 나는 나가 부정에… 첫째로 다는 것을 알고 있다 , 유감스러운…

1 Commitment...CHAOS!!!

Today when on the way around the school to find teacher... walk pass 1 commitment saw Justin and he hopped onto me and i brought him to the class. I was warmly welcome by all of them, glad... haha...
Then all of a sudden everyone started to shout over the CNY hamper...lol... they quarrel like little kids, some trying to control the class, some wanted the job to be done and some simply just want some peace and quiet... but then i need to carry on my thing so i left the class...
After school went back and saw them shouting again... haiz... all because of a hamper...haiz.. Monday they are going to do so i going there to ensure safety...haha
Because Bran, Sq and Malz they all got competition so i sub them and follow jun to RP and have some science competition thing... the people talk until i going to sleep... but as usual the refreshment was good...haha
Overall, today was a fun and hyper day...haha... Looking forward to the rest of the year...

Your vision become clear when you are able to see with your heart...

Just not expecting it....

today i got back some of my test just know that i did not do quite well... haiz... i am not putting effort into my work...
Everytime see the proposal will get really pissed off caused all the members doesnt want to do or no time or time crash together. i am just pissed off really pissed off... promise that they did keep... disappointed... haiz...

not in the mood of talking...

Suntec City... Master forgive and forget skill...

Today went Suntec!!! It started out at a gloomy morning... the 8 of us are going to Suntec for some Youth Olympics Games (YOG) thing... i woke up at about 5a.m. tired.... then bran,sq,mal,rach,qixin,stella,aidil and me meet up at CWP. In the MRT most of them play emo some going west then some going east of the train(in one cabin) then Bran, stella, qixin and me stand in the equator and became middleman... it took us about 45 mins to reach there... when we reach the convention hall then we knew Mr Vik wasnt coming...haiz... the talk was like damn bored and long but we saw lots of youth Olympians.. and the refreshment was great.. we took some potato chips and we thought we took alot when we saw the primary school people took 3,4 packets in their hand...
After that we took alots of pictures have some fun shots and some emo pics... i think i wouldnt have one if i didnt speak up for myself...
We took our pics and went to eat and Master the forgive and forget skill:

(Forgive and Forget)
Lvl: Infinite
Description: Being in a state where you just forgive and forget.
Escape from abnormal condition...
Type: Passive
Mental defense: Forever
Physical defense: For life
Duration: Never ending...

*Being like a toy that keeps the smile, being like a statue to keep everything out, being like a human who change things around...*

I know I know its maple... and need to concentrate on school right?
On our way home bran, sq and mal were asleep but i cant cause board the train then got very high tide... need to wait 45 mins!!! we were planning to print out the pictures but Bran's phone went out of batt when jun call... haiz... he wasnt here cause got tuition...
Reached CWP then go walk walk but then went Old Chang Kee to buy sotong head (bran dont like) Bought hot dogs ( Sq turn to dont like) dont know the reasons...
After that took bus home...

Solitude

Solitude... whenever this word came into my mind, i will often think of being alone, it was cold and dark... really no one there but myself...
Friends what are these people all about? They are also humans, which was like you and I but there is always something that made them special... they walk with you on the path you chose... they are people who were know you abit more... its just abit but it make a huge differences. Sometimes, maybe you would of it as a disaster, they sometimes may be in your way or they just do not accommodate to you, but actually they lead you, true friends, a blessing to get them...
Often, or should i say everytime, when i am having a group party, people tend to play a role of an emo guy/girl or someone that need others to care. Till now then I've realised, for most of the event i went out i just do not play a role in it, i felt like that i am just an empty soul which come and go without anyone realising.
During this October to December holiday, i know that i only had be with two person most of the time, often i got told by the back saying that i was a huge 'lightbulb' destroying happiness, instead of shooting out ray of light, it became that i shot out rockets or bombs that destroyed things, creating chaos and hate...
All these just make me realised that i just someone that causes all this problems, the sole/core of all this unhappiness...
Always, after all unhappy thing i have encountered being with or without a group, i would just keep myself happy, cause there always alittle strength in me and make me believed in myself, but its only just alittle strength and dun noe how long i could hold on... This year was really not my year, thing wasnt going in my way and really had lots of problems...
So for my upcoming years, i really hope that thing can get a whole lot better... and could find someone...
Bond that might be stronger...Create a new legend...

Worst! Worst day of my life! But also realised reality life

The day started when i need to go to school at 7.30 because of the secondary one orientation. When i reached school and saw all my bros (including me) in long pants... all look so smart... Then next our job was to direct the student and the parent, but the parent didnt want to sit and keep sticking with their child... when we ask them to sit they just nod their head and stand there again...diao... but overall the thing was good but just that my long pant was really warm!!!
After that, Anton, Malz and i went to jun's house. Play there... play computer and play piano... After that went to find Bran, ask him whether he want to go and cycle with us, but he was too tired and doesnt want to go...
Next, i went back to my house and change my clothes and went to ziyu house and request of borrowing their bicycle...went through lots of procedures to get the bicycle...
We cycle our way to Sebawang where we have our lunch...
Our journey continue as we ride our way to Sebawang beach, we play there and caught some crabs. Then our next station was to find Stella Chee, and she say she was at Ang Mo Ko...

GTG continue Tomorrow...

Great teacher! Great Lessons!...

Today, after the lesson of halogen i kind of uncovered some of myself... it was indeed a really great lesson and some of us shed tears at the later part of the course. we did on quite alot of things this past two day and we discovered our true self in it, what Martin say was meaningful, interesting and facts of lifes... he taught us alot and we also absorb it... have a sharing time of our powerful and powerless time, happy and sad...sweet and bitter... it make us recall lots and lots of things. what was most memorable was the video at the end about Mattie Stepanek, he was a 11 years old guy on 2001 that promote world peace... although suffering from a rare disease he live life to the fullest and had three wishes that was all granted... after that video it really knock me back to sense and learn to really cherished everyone... don't live with regret... tell your loved ones about how you feel about them... don't wait till the end as it will be too late... it was really a great video and Mattie ROX!!! i know others feel it too...
To all the friends,buddies,teachers and everyone... thank you... thank you for what you all had done, with all those encouragements, scoldings and humans life and experience really make me think of lots of things... thx buddies for all the things we been through... memorable days, memorable times and memorable peoples... GREAT memories...